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Stories : {The Tubular Arcanum: Volume I}

Final Fantasy Online tale by Romaunt, 2008-07-09T00:41:00.0000000. Reads: 2775
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[You see an old green leather bound book. It's pages are dense with writings and engravings of various magical subjects.]

Chapter 6

There is no established boundary between the world of the living and the world of the dead. We all live vibrant or disappointing lives and then die without any true understanding of the worth in that which we'd done. And so through magic mortals seek out the truth of their existence in the hope that they will somehow uncover some great secret. Through magic, the enlightened hope to find some way to understand life and death, and in that fashion learn how to go beyond them.

Magic flows strongly in this world, and in this vast wilderness surrounding our small kingdom the many myriad wonders of life can always bee found. I think in some way these reminders of existence are proof enough of the reason to live. However my philosophical equals will not agree. For in truth, the existence of life cannot justify itself. This is an undeniable fact. Nothing can justify its own existence simply by existing to begin with. This is a selfish philosophy and can only go to prove to ones’ self that they in fact exist. They cannot however prove this discovery to others.

In order to prove the worth of one's existence and therefore the worth of existence in full, one must understand the actual building blocks of life. One must understand from where living beings emerge and where they inevitably go: birth and death.

To start off this study the most blatant source of understanding came from an understanding of the female sex. Such studies were conducted several years ago by the burgeoning mage Veyeo-Rheo. He concluded that despite the female's ability to incubate the flesh of what would become another Tarutaru, she could not however incubate the Tarutaru's essence.

This conclusion was of course debated by those mages who have abandoned the belief in such a thing as the essence. However in the years passed, their debate has died down and Veyeo-Rheo's notes have become quite accepted dogma. This is most likely due to the words of the Star Sybil herself. Recently when addressing the ministries, the Star Sybil referred to the essence as the force of being which makes a Tarutaru who they are. It is their mind and heart bound into one energy. And she also noted, and I quote, that the "the strong essence of our kind is a gift from the gods and should not ever be taken lightly."

The gods have been a foundation of our beliefs for centuries, but only now are we even truly understanding the power they've given us. Even now the barbarians of the west envy our formidable energies in their lust for power. But why? Why were the Tarutaru people entrusted with the secrets of the universe? Why are our lives so different from our barbaric neighbors?

If we are to conclude that the gods formed our bodies to reproduce more fleshy bodies and then gave these bodies the essences that power them, then we must conclude that the gods see fit for us to live. This is an acceptable conclusion given the truths that Tarutaru have come to accept over the past few centuries. However, if we are to accept this idea, we must also accept that the animals, who have females and move about in life, must also be seen fit to live. Likewise, the barbarians of the west must also be right in the eyes of the gods.

All life, Tarutaru or not, seems somehow bound to this thing called life. And the opinions of the gods which allow even the violent beasts to exist seem to be empty in the face of logic. Nurra-Laurra, a well accepted mind in celestial studies, stated in his recent dialogue that he believed that the gods work on our world existed only at the beginning and the end. He stated, “this is why we have no reckoning of these moments: we cannot know our lives before birth or after death because those to points of existence are in the hands of the gods.” Nurra-Laurra goes on to theorize that between birth and death, the gods do not interfere with our lives. He even went on to say that the gods might even derive some entertainment from watching us bumble around in the darkness of life.

Is this the foregone conclusion of life then? A blind form of entertainment between birth and death? Nurra-Laurra would conclude that this idea would be enough to give living beings reason to live. But unfortunately for Nurra-Laurra, his philosophies are far from accepted within the Ministries. And so despite the unusual philosophy adopted by this Tarutaru, we are still left with many questions and much more to learn.

In our goal to prove the purpose of life and in a sense move beyond it, we have in a way stumbled upon some desirable facts. These facts are undeniable and in their own way lead us ever closer to a functional conclusion.

To begin with, we understand that our physical bodies are not the center of our lives. Although she did not speak these words herself, from what she said it can be concluded that the Star Sybil believes the physical body to be but a shell. And the essence is the true form of a Tarutaru. This can also be theoretically assumed for all other beings, including the barbarians.

Also, understanding that all beings have an essence, one can conclude that all beings are the same on the spiritual level. And one can also assume that because of this similarity, despite morality or intelligence, the gods see all living things as the same. Therefore the gods will not interfere with the goings on of mortal beings because they see no reason to do so. One could also assume from this that the gods perhaps have their own sense of morality and intelligence. As gods, perhaps their philosophies extend far beyond ours. And so, now given essence by the gods, we have reason to live by them. But is this enough?

While studying ruins far to the north, I came across a barbarian ritual. The elder of their tribe held in his hand a great wand. I determined this to be the same wand spoken of in many Tarutaru writings. This relic, known commonly as the Black Rose, had somehow fallen into savage hands.

I had only seen the Black Rose once before. It was unearthed from deep within the ruins out in Sarutabaruta. After that the Star Sybil had placed it in the cities keep, to protect it from unlawful use, seeing that nobody was quite sure what it did. And it was the Star Sybil herself who named it.

As I watched the barbarian ritual though, my fear of the use of the relic seemed to diminish and I became entranced by their motions. I watched as they brought out their dead, recently mauled in the hunt, and with this strange wand brought them back to life.

Magic that brings things back to life from death. Why? Is death not an ultimate end? Would one not desire to stay dead once dead? Or is death undesirable to the barbarians? The questions flooded my already mangled mentality, but I had no time to answer them as my welcome was soon worn out.

I reported my findings to the Sybil as soon as I returned home. And aside from an action to regain possession of the stolen artifact, the events witnessed have become quite the philosophical milestone.

Many within our people’s have often considered the westerners to be without natural thought processes, but this event proves that they can think on higher levels than we’d originally assumed. Their philosophy of life seemed to be even greater than ours, as they valued it so much they refused to allow others of their kind to loose it. Is life really that important? And what is horrible about death?

Despite our constant search for answers, there will always be questions that elude even the sharpest minds. The questions surrounding life and death are quite possibly the most complex of all. Recently many of our people have begun fashioning magics that can alter the space between life and death. This is not only because of my findings in the mountains, but also because of the mages own personal curiosities about what lay beyond. Through the use of such spells, perhaps those who die can be brought back to tell us what lay beyond. Answers that may very well establish a boundary between what we now consider life… and death.

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